phone numbers - july 2 11:08pm
My dad switched me onto my parents' old cell phone b/c my phone is close to being completly broken. My number is still
the same & I still dont have texting, but I lost your phone numbers. If you guys have time ever, please email me with
your number. Idc whether you email me
here or
here. Just let me know on the
tagboard which email you used & when you
email me. Also let me know when you can
talk on the phone. My parents are on vacation, and me & my sis are home
alone. She could care less what I do, so anytime you guys wanna talk, just let me know!
report card came along with drama - june 28 3:21pm
Okay, like I did last year, the first number is my regents score, the second number is my final average in that course
(except for the classes w/ 1 number, thats just my final average):
US HISTORY: 93; 87
MATH: 83; 90
GYM: 99
BAND/CHORUS/JAZZ BAND: 100
CHEMISTRY: 75; 86
ENGLISH: 96; 95
SPANISH: 97; 97
My overall average was a
98.84. Overall, I like my regents score, except the chemistry negative pissed me off b/c I
shouldve gotten a score somewhere in the 80's, but hey, I passed everything, and next year, Ill only have one regents to
worry about.
Nate also made the honor roll too!!!!!!!!! Im not sure of all his grades, I just know he passed everything and that he
made the honor roll. I guess that my helping him with school work has had some advantage.
So yea, there has been
MORE drama with Nate's mom. Friday morning, Nate called (and woke me up) to say that his mom
said that if I didnt apologize to his sister for "being mean" then I cant see Nate for 2 weeks. THAT was a bunch of bullshit
b/c I wasnt doing JACK SHIT to his sister. All I did was not say anything to her b/c a while ago, she ratted me and Nate
out to his mom b/c we were in the band room when Nate wasnt supposed to be & I was helping him with homework b/c he needed
it and we dont have any classes together where I can help him and I was pissed off at her for it. But she made up shit to
his mom, saying that I was
glaring at her. Now I dont want to sound conceited if I am, but I think if y'all know
me well enough, that Im too damn nice to glare at anyone, no matter how pissed off I am. Anyway, I told my mom about what
Nate said and she got
EXTREMELY pissed off. She agrees with me that Im not doing anything wrong and that its his
sister that owes me an apology. My mom stayed pissed the whole afternoon pretty much about this, especially when his
mom stopped by my house after she got out of work to find out what was going on. Basically she didnt have any clue about
what Nate was talking about. She said that she didnt want me back at the house until I stopped being "nasty" to Shanelle.
I told her straight up that I never gave her a dirty look and I was never nasty to her. All I did was not talk to her, but
she never made an attempt to talk to me. My mom & I also said to her that if Shanelle wants to make peace with me, Id
be more than happy to maturely talk it out with Shanelle, but that seemed to just go over her head. My mom also accused her
of acting like a teenager b/c she thinks its okay for her to always text Nate when hes with me about random stuff, like
about Michael Jackson or what were doing. When my mom accused her of being a teen, again, it didnt even go straight to her.
She just continued talking & acted like my mom didnt say anything. Basically, this whole conversation took about an hour,
which sucked b/c everything was repeated b/c nothing my mom said got through to his mom and also, we had a wedding to go
to about 2 hours away from us. 20 minutes after she left, she called back, saying that Nate wasnt lying about what he told
me this morning and that she did say that a while ago, but he meant when my parents left for vacation (my parents are going
to India, & Ill be home by myself until the 11th when my dad comes back b/c my sis is also going on vacation w/ her ex).
My mom pretty much has told me that me & Nate arent gonna last b/c of the way his mom is, which really hurts. I mean, I dont
think anyone wants to hear that in the middle of their relationship, especially if their really close to their loved one.
I just hope that we get over this speed bump and that we do last, b/c Ive never felt this close to any other guy before and
also, Ive had dreams of us together in the future. Ive had a lot of dreams crushed, I dont want these dreams to be crushed.
I know y'all are probably sick of hearing me say this, but hey, its my blog. I can post what I want. Just ignore it if
it annoys you that much.
new tut & regents scores so far - june 23 10:00pm
Okay, so I added a new tutorial to the freebies section! I hope you guys like it!
And my last 2 regents were today, so Im free for the summer until drivers ed starts. Here are my scores so far:
US HISTORY: 93
CHEMISTRY: 75
ENGLISH: 96
SPANISH: 97
There is a
negative curve on the chemistry regents for some reason, I have no clue why. New York State is just retarded
like that I guess, but I wouldve gotten
somewhere in the 80's if it werent for that damn curve! But so far, I like
my scores. Hopefully Thursday, Jonni can take me to the school so we can see if the grades are posted yet.
freebies section open! - june 14 7:00pm
Okay, after 2 weeks of hard, devoted work *pants* the freebies section is NOW open. The recipes arent on there, but if
you ever need a recipe for something, feel free to
email me for one. :) I also
figured out how to code default, skinny default, & skinny myspace layouts, so I also put some on there as well. If I ever
add something new to the freebies section, Ill post it
here.
Okay, so you guys know how I found my ex's myspace a while ago? Well, he
added me on myspace.
IMMEDIATELY I
called Nate b/c I was
freaking out and didnt know what to do about it. He just told me to add him and tell me what
he says to me. Im pretty sure that my ex has completly forgotten about the past, and that kind of inspired me to do the
same. I cant hold a grudge forever, no matter what the situation is or had been, Im just too damn forgiving, and sometimes
I hate that about myself. So Im forgiving my ex, and Nates a little shocked, but he'll deal with it and he knows that
Im not gonna go back to him.
this weekend - june 7 11:52
Well it started Friday, my last day of work. After I got out of work, the original plan was for me to go to Rochester w/
my parents, visiting friends again, but on the way home, I saw Jonni driving around. She followed us home. While my parents
were getting ready to go, Jonni & I were just talking about school & our "lovely" regents and my dad came out and said "Shee
you dont have to go tonight, you can hang w/ Jonni." So my parents left and me & Jonni were home alone w/ Liz. Then we
just decided to go out to the movies. On the way, Nate was texting Jonni and she gave me permission to text him, pretending
it was her. I texted him, saying that I was like REALLY sick (which I kinda was, my lovely time of the month). He didnt
really say anything about that, he had to go. Well we went to see Night at the Museum, Battle of the Smithsonian. It was
REALLY good, I recommend it for those who want to see it. I had a lot of fun just being with Jonni, but I apologized to he
b/c in a way I was using her to talk to Nate. She said it was all good and dont worry about it.
Yesterday was the parade for Dairy Week (my town's yearly celebration). My friend Breanna called me a little while before
the parade started and asked if I was still going, b/c Nate said that I was sick. Nate said that he wasnt going to the
parade b/c
he wouldnt be allowed to talk to me b/c hes grounded from me, and his parents would find out that he was talking
to me b/c of his sister. So instead I was at the parade with Jonni, Sarah, & Breanna (Jonni wasnt in the parade, but I
invited her to come over & watch it with my family & hangout w/ me later on.) Afterwards, the 4 of us went to the carnival
to hangout and just walk around. We got bored (& a little nauseous from the rides) so we walked back to my house & watched
Finding Nemo. Half an hour later, Capp (Nates best friend) calls me and says he has someone who wants to talk to me.
It
was Nate. I was shocked. His parents had let him go to the carnival and he was
allowed to see me. So we headed
out to the carnival
again (We were gonna go anyway to watch fireworks, but we left early). Nate came looking for me
b/c I didnt know that he was allowed to see me, so I was hiding and Sarah & Jonni went to find him. Then they left us
alone for a minute b/c I needed to tell him something.
Friday night, I got bored so I just started looking up people that used to go to my school back in kindergarten. Then I
decided to be a smart ass and look up my ex,
the one that hit me a LONG time ago, and I found his myspace. I was
in shock. It really messed with my emotions and confused me. Even though Im not with him and that Im over him, I still
have some leftover feelings for him. Part of me wanted to message him, just to see if he remembers me, but another part
of me said that if he wants to talk to me, he would look me up & message me. That really confused me on how to feel. I
told Nate about finding his myspace, and he could tell that I still had a few feelings left. He understood and he wasnt
mad at me, he was just hurt. But he knows that I still love my ex like a buddy and that I love Nate like a fat man loves
cake. He thinks I should leave him alone b/c it could bring back painful memories and if he contacts me in anyway, he
wanted to be there and read it with me.
Nates ungrounded today, so yay! We can talk again! :D
how drama just loves me - june 4 5:39pm
So earlier this week, I was at math review. Jonni was gonna give me a ride home afterward. I noticed as we were walking to
her car that I had a missed call from Nate's house. I figured it was Nate calling me, so I called back and his mom answered
and said he was grounded b/c he lied about something, I dont remember what, his step-dad grounded him. It was basically
all 8 minutes of bitching to me about Nate and also how Ive "dis-respected her," whatever that means. So after I got off
the phone with her, I was basically home. I walked in the door, my dad was at the door to greet me and tell me about Nate.
I already told him that I heard b/c she called me. Then about 28 minutes later, my mom came home, and when she heard that
his mom called here AND my phone, she got pissed. She called his mom and basically bitched her out. Shes sick of listening
to her bitch about Nate and told her if she has a problem with Nate to take it up with him,
NOT US She made his mom
cry, which I was glad about. So Nate's punishment was he cant talk to me outside of school for the rest of the week. So
later on that night,
Nate called. His mom let him call me b/c his step-dad was at work.
HYPOCRITE MUCH!? If
you dont want your kid to lie, why are you lying!? Thats basically what I thought the whole time we talked.
Yesterday, Nate and his mom were gonna go to the jazz band performance at my town's carnival (which went EXTREMLY awesome)
but his mom
had the nerve to call me and tell me that they werent going b/c
she had a headache from that
one night. Ever since that one day, Ive gotten
extremely uncomfortable about hearing his moms voice, even if its
on the phone and whenever she calls me, I get uncomfortable, so today on the bus, I told Nate to make sure that his mom
doesnt call me anymore b/c it makes me uncomfortable. He said that he understands and he said he would.
Well thats my drama pretty much all summed up. Other than that, not a lot has been going on, just been reviewing for
regents this year and being stressed and exhausted b/c of them. Test anxiety basically.
Thats about it!!
catching up - may 31 6:28pm
I have
15 days until my last day of school & regents start. EEEKK!!!!!!!! My test anxiety is
already kicking
in, just thinking about them.
Darien Lake wasnt all that great. Nate had injured his knee a few days before playing on the softball field in gym class and
couldnt bend his knee that well, so he couldnt fit well on most of the rides, so I sat out with him, and also the weather
was SHITTY. It was freezing and raining all day. But Nate did win me a stuffed killer whale and purple nemo in a game, so
that made the day better.
Prom was
AMAZING. I have pictures on
myspace & facebook, but after prom was even funner. Me & Nate were
allowed
to go to my friend Sarah's after-prom sleepover. My mom didnt really have that much of a problem with me & Nate
staying the night there b/c there would be other people there with us so we wouldnt have a chance to have sex (like we were
REALLY planning on having sex!), but Nates mom had a HUGE problem with it, b/c of course, us having sex is the ONLY thing
on her mind, its almost like she wants it to happen & for me to get pregnant when Im 18 b/c thats what happened to her
(Nate) and so she can feel better about herself. I could be wrong, but thats how it feels to me. So my mom talked to her
and b/c of that, Nate was allowed to go. I had a great time at the party, and dont take this wrong way, but when we were
sleeping, Nate & I were snuggling up to each other and it just felt right to me. I was comfortable and the only awkward part
was when Nate saw me in the morning w/ messed up hair and no makeup on. (Im so used to seeing Nate with my hair done and
with makeup on that made it awkward). I just hope that well be able to have sleepovers again and
NOT have to wait
until we're 18.
Jazz band performance Wednesday, Im nervous about. Were playing our concert songs, then the pop group goes on, then jazz
band again. The first set is our concert songs & the second set is other songs. I have to play the set
twice this
time instead of once. Im more nervous about my second set song b/c Ive only played it once and I got lost really easily.
I just hope that I can do it right on Wednesday and in Tuesdays rehearsal. Yes, Ill have Nate record me again and Ill
put the videos on here, hopefully you can hear me better and Ill change the batteries in my camera soon so it wont keep
dying.
concert videos - may 14th 10:39pm
Okay, the
first one is me on set. You can kind of hear me at first, but after a while, you
cant really hear me. Im doing a
swing beat on the set, and yea, you just cant hear me that well. But you arent missing anything. (BTW, in case you cant see
me,
look in between the trombone players)
The others are of me
on the vibes (my camera kept dying on Nate while he was recording me so thats why theres
parts missing and are separated.) I
also know its not exactly the best quality and theres a
long time in between my vibe parts, but try to bear with it. Its
how my camera is and I
couldnt convert the files correctly so that I could edit them in Windows Movie Maker. When I did convert
the files, the whole time didnt convert, so you'll have to make do with what I uploaded.
